OK ot not OK?
"are you OK?"
"yes, but..."
"are you OK?"
"i'm OK" smile "but..."
"are you OK?"
"sure!" grin "but...:
"are you OK?"
"OK la.." a meaningful smile.
those are little conversations that give us a picture of how beautiful being a Malay. Malays always give other answers before telling the truth. to know the meaning is not to listen to the words, but other language, i.e. body and intonation. that makes Malays beautiful because you have to master soft skills before talking to Malays, and to seduce Malay girls (wakaka).
am i OK? frankly i am not OK. i am not OK cos i dont know whether i am OK or not. when people ask me questions such as "how are you?" i dont know what to answer. but to be polite i'd say "fine, thank you" :P sad to say, these days is the most hectic moment in my life. everything is running out of control. now i am just like a doll, just be here cos i suppose to be here. just, follow the flow... i have no control button in my hand. i just walk as i was programmed to walk. is this called life?
i end my dream with another dream. and keep on dreaming. again and again, over and over again. the life enthiusm has gone as i did not reach my dream out. i always want to live happily with persons those i love but yet i am lonely. but when i move into my other friends', they are lonely too. luckily we have permanent job that we have to think about, at least could reduce these loneliness.
when other friends talking and preparing to settle down, deep in my heart i gets a little scratch. but i deny it. it ain't that important but yet i really want to have a family of my own. but again i deny it. too many excuses. still young, unstable job, responsibilities to my family, not enough experience, so many things to do, etc. i can't hardly wait for my 28's. i hope at that age, i'd have a very strong foundation of my ownself, rich enough, mature enough, lots of friends those can make me forget about how lonely my 23's is. and able to settle down by myself. and strong enough to smile and be patient on what Allah has given me.
even if i have a lot of friends, but still no such that charming person to fill my heart's void. i think he died many years ago, before meeting me :))
"yes, but..."
"are you OK?"
"i'm OK" smile "but..."
"are you OK?"
"sure!" grin "but...:
"are you OK?"
"OK la.." a meaningful smile.
those are little conversations that give us a picture of how beautiful being a Malay. Malays always give other answers before telling the truth. to know the meaning is not to listen to the words, but other language, i.e. body and intonation. that makes Malays beautiful because you have to master soft skills before talking to Malays, and to seduce Malay girls (wakaka).
am i OK? frankly i am not OK. i am not OK cos i dont know whether i am OK or not. when people ask me questions such as "how are you?" i dont know what to answer. but to be polite i'd say "fine, thank you" :P sad to say, these days is the most hectic moment in my life. everything is running out of control. now i am just like a doll, just be here cos i suppose to be here. just, follow the flow... i have no control button in my hand. i just walk as i was programmed to walk. is this called life?
i end my dream with another dream. and keep on dreaming. again and again, over and over again. the life enthiusm has gone as i did not reach my dream out. i always want to live happily with persons those i love but yet i am lonely. but when i move into my other friends', they are lonely too. luckily we have permanent job that we have to think about, at least could reduce these loneliness.
when other friends talking and preparing to settle down, deep in my heart i gets a little scratch. but i deny it. it ain't that important but yet i really want to have a family of my own. but again i deny it. too many excuses. still young, unstable job, responsibilities to my family, not enough experience, so many things to do, etc. i can't hardly wait for my 28's. i hope at that age, i'd have a very strong foundation of my ownself, rich enough, mature enough, lots of friends those can make me forget about how lonely my 23's is. and able to settle down by myself. and strong enough to smile and be patient on what Allah has given me.
even if i have a lot of friends, but still no such that charming person to fill my heart's void. i think he died many years ago, before meeting me :))
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