Spider..

tiada lafaz yang lebih agung, kalimah cintamu yang kutunggu...

finally, yes! i got it yea yeaahhhhh! ...akan kusahut cintamu itu, bersama kita menuju bahagia....

after almost 7months of waiting.. what can i conclude is, my unwedded unemployment is... a vain! u know what, walking along for almost 7months... i was nearly become a kambing. but it taught me to become a paragon! kui3x.

remember my sheikh's advice during our short journey 3 weeks ago.. "dalam hidup ni perlukan mujahadah bukan senang² jer nak dapatkan kebaikan. psl dalam diri manusia terdapat sesuatu benda bernama nafsu". he woke up my consciousness. that, i did not practice the mujahadah.. i just want it strongly, but i didn't fight for it. i want it to come into my pocket. it's nonsense right? even Rasulullah who paradise is guaranteed for, asked for forgiveness 70times a day. isk3x.. demn..sedey2...

it's scary... to go outside. like a spider that was stranded in a cave for along tym, it's not easy to adapt with the outside world. i'm really afraid. i'm not prepare to be a subject in such that big city. manusia, mana pernah bersyukur ngan apa yg diperolehi. kat mulut je cakap alhamdulillah tp lam ati still komplen gak kn?

but i have to... life is an unpredictable fighting. phew, if only i could choose what i wanna be in this life, i choce to be a spider... spider bagus tau, tolong sorokkan Nabi masa hijrah. ;)