I will Survive!

when my tension indicator shows underminimun level, the only question appears "WHY I AM STILL LIVING?". being alone at this level is assassin. i may kill myself by keep on thinking of that question. i feel down like i was made up from the clay of hell. the craziest thing i ever had in mind was "I WILL PUT MYSELF IN FRONT OF A CAR AND LET IT HIT ME DIE".

but when i go outside, looking at the people around me, i feel so small. out there, lots of people suffer of mortal wars. lots of people don't have complete limbs as mine. lots of people don't have families. lots of people suffer from unrecovered desease. lots of people live with no education. lots of people have no money. lots of people.....etc. but they are still alive.

they survive. so do i.

thank you Allah.