F A T E ~n

i dunno wut fate has for me. and i has no right to ask. but so many things left me with a big sign of questionnaire. i am a kinda streetsmart pers (cheh, pinjam ayat), i won't be satisfied until i experience samting by myself. i don't rely on theory, especially oral speculation without real experience or at least experiment.

i guess today ain't like my ordinary days. i did not online in the morning (tido), made a new timetable (wo!!!), some phone calls (unfortunately none was from pet) and a special guest. ;)) alhamdulillah, at least my barometer indicator shows a normal range. this must be the fourth happiest day in my life (since unemployed).
my first ranking = my anniversary of being a sp*nst*r (again), i got a new pair of sandals for myself :P it's an encouragement for me to be stronger. it's hard to live under this condition.. you'll never know if you don't experience this.
second = job interview with m*wahan infront of sunway pyramid (1st time sampai sane), it was a sweet memory riding my dad's old car from SA to PJ at 6.30am! but KL is KL.. jammed is everywhere..
third = visit akh last weekend (she made roti jala speshly for me!), i miss kubang bat*ng like crazie! woh, my old crush, she's so fly. if i was born a man sure i'll marry her (and mia and ani and efie to make it 4! and everybody lar!) hehe.
and today falls onto number 4!

efie called just now, responding to my call yesterday (where i was completely down). she asked about my % of down, luckily today my sinusodial graph is at 0 on y-axis. i dunno what it is but i feel something shining above my head since this evening. i can't guess but i feel warm. i dunno wut..hmm, is it a sign of another day of blue?

by the way, i feel so hepi and if tomorrow will turn into blue color i'll still feel sate, for today's pleasure.

not blogging for a week left me with some stories.

some of ma frens asked about my condition. i know they worry about me, but it's nothing to do on the rain that'll fall onto the ground. nobody can make it fall back to the sky, unless it's out of gravity influence zone. everybody has her own possession in life.

and, my dad worries about my future partner. he said that i am too choosy :P (lex ler ayah, kecah ar). i'm still young, and dangerous.

and, i cancelled my date with lias tomorrow because i havta do something else that more important than my biz with him :P

and, i fall in luv again with pet.

i wanna learn and experience everything people deserve in this world. i missed lots of things at campus (bcoz of some pseudos-) and i dun wanna let it pass me by ever again. gee, that's tough!