Yawn-----

i'm not in comfortable mood. i can't see any point for me to smile, these days. as everyday is sunday, i feel nothing but sundays. i started to feel bored. i've found no switch for me to turn on and swith my life to something i can enjoy. it's not that i hate being home, doing nothing but i just hate it when today is just like yesterday, and same like 3 months ago. tomorrow, i know it'll be the same. i feel like a hamster rolling in her cage.

actually i've tons of things to do at home, but I JUST BORED! i don't want to hang out with my buddies, finding a piece of cake around the town. i don't want to spend my time window shopping in supermarkets. and i don't wanna spend my money.... [no money left to spend]. but i'm sick with my downgraded brain. too much stuffs and waste accumulated. i'm sick honey... i'm sick!

i don't need chronic desease to be sick. i don't need leukaemia, paru2 berair, ginjal berdarah, etc. to be sick. i just need a little portion of routine, loneliness, boring, sucking stuffz, comics, movies, tv, musics... and being sick. i hate movies. owh please... somebody please take the tv away! i hate everything around me. everything is not what i want/ i need. this is not my room! please take me to a cave! i don't need electricity, i don't need soft bed, i don't need pc! i don't need myself!!! kill me! kill me! POMMM! arghhh... die....

:D
puas ati.