lama tak masuk

finally, after almost 3 weeks dwelling without pc&internet connection, i managed to get it back. initially the 'pomen' install windows ME and it couldn't detect my modem. i decided to install windows XP by myself and finally it done after a copy of corrupted cd!

no blogging sometimes make me feel safe & calm. eheh~ in a simple language, i think it reduced my sin of mengumpat [if any] and cakap tak surupa bikin [if any]. :P

cakap tarak surupa bikin is human nature. i never see somebody with a good record of really cakap surupa bikin. oh yeah, there is somebody. a friend of mine, i called her KAK ***. she's so gergous. when she hates something, i know she won't do that. when she says something is bad, she won't gets near to anything relates to that thing. no like others la, says Pet it bad, Pet is gomen's chrony, Pet is cruel, Pet doesn't pay zakat, etc [ i don't know, i just hear it. it's floating everywhere, sorry Pet] but they work for Pet as well. don't say you have no choice, you have it if you want...

i used to be a girl with that manner. i used to blame others on what happen to me. when i got stomachache, i blame the food i ate. but it was me the fool, why i ate that? but it also human nature, when something happen because of us, it is a forgivable mistake. but when others did, it must be a non-stop punishment he should accept. those days, when i got angry with my roomate, i blame her for making me angry [sorry met]. :D why don't i let the feeling go?

i really admire that kak. she's so true and sincere. she's not a rahib in public but a cumicikki in her room. she's a rahib anywhere and anytime. she's so confident and strong. she has her own paradigm and nobody could interrupt hers. she talks because she knows and bace on what she experienced, not just simply looking around, hear some prejudge assumption, then make comment, sometimes can be condemn. finally, it will comes to "oh, rupanya..."

*reference [61:2-3], [17:36]