hopeless
i wasn't such this hopeless. so many things to be hoped on. my result. my career. my future. my project. my body. ops. i know that i SHOULD NOT have a low result, or else... i will only able to be a technichian! wowowowow~ disgusting.
but this time, it is really a hopeless moment. furthermore, after the worst experience of schlumberger secoond screening. it is not about i want to get the job, no... but i just wanna perform well in front of my frens. but it was..... like hell. my motivation went down immediately. i tried to make myself happy by visiting some places in KL, such as KLCC, went to shah alam, dropped by bookstores but it still... a feeling of hopeless.
i'm gonna have another interview next tuesday. i just focusing on going to alamanda putrajaya. give a damn to the suck interview. whoa, am i listening to my heart instead of using my head? okay, okay let use my head.
if i was well performing in the schlumberger interview, the possibility for me to be selected is high. because the woman said that "i admire your decision" during my 1st screening session. then, she sent me 2 emails. whan i called her, she told me that my name appeares 2 times. so, id i performed well, i'm gonna be a schlumberger engineer that very.... isk.. malas nak citer. actually during her presentation about the company i felt like "biar betoi aku nak kejer sini".
so, it does not matter.good will hunting, rite. either cepat or lambat je. but, hopeless is still hopeless. at this level... "lantakla ape nak jadi. takde keje bleh lepak kat umah bersenang-senang bersama kucing-kucing.
one more thing, my result. final result. haiyo... dahla susah cam eii... taktau nak cakap ape. i am scare of... not getting 3+. isk isk isk.
this just like a person without agama lak. hmm... as a Muslim i believe that the more i give the more i get & what i get is not mine, it is His. if He loves me, He will give everything i ask. but now... hmm.... oh. i get what i wanted what...
i have something that nobody else has. ;>
blessed with a casual family.
(fuh, still feel depress)
but this time, it is really a hopeless moment. furthermore, after the worst experience of schlumberger secoond screening. it is not about i want to get the job, no... but i just wanna perform well in front of my frens. but it was..... like hell. my motivation went down immediately. i tried to make myself happy by visiting some places in KL, such as KLCC, went to shah alam, dropped by bookstores but it still... a feeling of hopeless.
i'm gonna have another interview next tuesday. i just focusing on going to alamanda putrajaya. give a damn to the suck interview. whoa, am i listening to my heart instead of using my head? okay, okay let use my head.
if i was well performing in the schlumberger interview, the possibility for me to be selected is high. because the woman said that "i admire your decision" during my 1st screening session. then, she sent me 2 emails. whan i called her, she told me that my name appeares 2 times. so, id i performed well, i'm gonna be a schlumberger engineer that very.... isk.. malas nak citer. actually during her presentation about the company i felt like "biar betoi aku nak kejer sini".
so, it does not matter.good will hunting, rite. either cepat or lambat je. but, hopeless is still hopeless. at this level... "lantakla ape nak jadi. takde keje bleh lepak kat umah bersenang-senang bersama kucing-kucing.
one more thing, my result. final result. haiyo... dahla susah cam eii... taktau nak cakap ape. i am scare of... not getting 3+. isk isk isk.
this just like a person without agama lak. hmm... as a Muslim i believe that the more i give the more i get & what i get is not mine, it is His. if He loves me, He will give everything i ask. but now... hmm.... oh. i get what i wanted what...
i have something that nobody else has. ;>
blessed with a casual family.
(fuh, still feel depress)
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