living in the shadow

I'm stuck in a broken life,
One that I can't escape.
I always have the need to breakaway,
coz this life of mine I just cannot take.

Life to me, is not a gift,
To me its more a curse,
No one really knows how i feel inside,
and for that, things for me are getting worse.

I'm turning to things i never thought i would,
I'm trying to kill the pain,
But everything i do to take it away,
The feelings always remains.

I pray to God every night,
asking Him for something more,
I don't know why i feel the way i do,
But I just can't this life anymore.

I feel suffocated and weighed upon,
I'm loosing control,
I feel the world is caving in on me,
or maybe too much i hold...

waduh2... syukurla i am a Muslim.